Thursday, September 13, 2007

Friday, April 20, 2007

Well it seems that one of my disabilities has hampered me at another job. People of the world I have a life threatening allergy to Nuts. I have had it all my life. Now for the first time in my sordid life, I have a job/career in something that I truly enjoy. Why is that some people can't realize the simple fact that this will kill me.

In my workplace, you are not allowed to wear scented products and everyone strictly adheres to that policy. I asked my manager on the floor about this and used that in a line of questioning.(Meanwhile I'm segregated from the rest of my team, with little support for my 3rd day as a real agent.)

My manager said, I definitely would get in trouble if I wore scented products into the building. I however am not allergic but only sensitive to them. So I asked him" If i wear scented products but I'm not allergic to them and other people here can eat products with nuts in them but I'm deathly allergic to nuts and there is no recourse for them? Then shouldn't I be exempt from the scents rule?" He said"No."

I think this is unfair, I want to be with my team or atleast be treated with respect and dignity. I respect he no scents rule because I can relate to that person.

I give great customer service. I treat each and every one of them with respect. For if I don't then why would they want to be a customer anymore?

I try to treat everyone I meet with respect, no matter what the circumstance. Life is about equality and diversity.

Why isn't it doing that for me?

Feeling sad and alone at Convergys.............

Saturday, January 13, 2007

thoughts that need to be set free from my overstressed mind

So people it's January 13th 2007, you would think that a new year would be good things but in my case it's the same as always. Y'see I'm going to be 35 very soon and I've totally missed out on alot in life. I got into alot of bad drugs and alcohol when I was younger. these things took over my life and prevented me from going to school, university and so on. I'm sitting here feeling all sorry for myself because every time that I come up with a good idea to get myself going., no one around me take it seriously. I 've had many great ideas and business plans. Fantastic time saving inventions for everyday life. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not here to boast or say that I'm better but I have these great ideas. I'm stuck in where I don't think there is any way out. I feel like hell. I feel like no one understands or really gives a shit. Why is it so hard to get ahead in life? Why can't I get my break, huh? I've had so many loses in my life. I've lost the woman I Loved. Her name was Mary. We have a daughter together but I don't get to see her. She's 10. She doesn't even know who I am.:( I had loved two others and they got abortions. What is a guy supposed to do to get things right? Why and how can this always happen? Because of this I really truly believe that GOD hates me. I think he/she/it has a real hate on for me. Why else would everything be crap. Carppy life, crappy leg, crappy health, crappy JOBS, crappy crappy crappy. Why can't he/she/it pick on someone else for a few years. Believe me if I told you everything. You would cry for weeks and have nightmares for years. I don't know why I'm pouring this out here for the world to see but fuck it. I got nothing much else to loose. The cynisist (if that's even a word)is what I have become in my years. I wish the world would get a new paradigm. I wish that money would be abolished completely and forever. I wish science would prevail over entertainment. I wish I had a girlfriend and a job and a house of my own. I wish My Friends were home. I wish someone would read this and tell me they understand. I wish I could walk properly again.
I want to be happy but I forget how.